hahahah

Whenever you are sad, remember Syd has sang “I am yum yummy yim yam do yimmy yim yam yum”


...that is all

Yours truly,

Lynn

Entranced by the Enigma...The Madman Inspires

“I don’t think I’m easy to talk about. I’ve got a very irregular head. And I’m not anything that you think I am anyway.”

~Syd Barrett

How I wish you were here

I’m thinking a lot about Syd Barrett lately. It’s very difficult not to any day, but lately… I don’t know exactly what to say...that someone so incredibly far from my reach is so dear and important to me right now. His story breaks my heart. More than others I’ve read of beautiful, young rockers and rollers drowning, dying, crashing…at least they died the same person they were when they were born. Altered by humanity, age, reality, time, and substance, but essentially they think and are the same. But with Syd, he had been changed from a glorious, groundbreaking ray of love & light, to an ever-silent, tripped out tragedy. And it’s just so sad..you know..? I just wish I could have met him. Before or after his meltdown, I don’t care. Just to know him would be enough. Find out truths, lies, learn from him.. Talk about the weather.. I don’t and wouldn’t mind. I just want to thank him for being how he was, and making people think and be happy. It sounds silly, but it all means a lot. Everything, actually. I wonder, now, if he really existed. If he really lived from—what was it?—1946 to 2006?—and if he really led the Floyd to existance, and laughed and painted and sang and gave the mad their king. I bet I just sound silly and stupid with all my fever-dream ranting..but I had to write about Syd. Because I was reading a bunch of things from the Floyd, producers, colleagues, friends, girls, and Syd himself. And because he was a lovely creature. It was very fun to read and it took a while. And then it was done with: Syd Barrett: (when asked if people still remember him) "Yes, I should think so..."
Upon reading that quote, I busted into tears and I couldn’t breathe, my throat was so tight. For some reason, that quote hit me so so hard. Then when I gathered my wits again, what i’ve been writing happened. I could hear him say it—the quote, I mean. There has to be some connection with me and this man. The Dark Side Of The Moon and myself were both born in 1973 and i've had a very deep attraction to Shine On my entire life, remembering as a child... and watching The Wall and not understanding it but being ok with that. A sort of hibernation period in my life and not really understanding anything actually. Feeling a deep sense of something was in me...but it was burried pretty deep. Surfacing in recent years and growing tremendously. Which seems to me like the perfect setting to re-discover Pink Floyd, including and especially early Floyd. I should really go on to something else now... Starting with my big bad reveal and how I was into Syd for about a month and a half when I found out he had died 5 years previous (I got into him 2011). I was absolutely devastated—because I was being forced to trade my hero for a ghost. The still-living, still-breathing, beautiful Syd that I thought still was had been ripped away. But I soon adjusted to the realization “your sweet little scarecrow is dead, Lynn.” and here I am now, crying over the bones of a stranger. I don’t know what to say now, except that 'im tired' and 'Roger’s very nice, still caring about Syd no matter what',  and 'if you dont know who Syd Barrett is, i recommend you get lost in his story for most of your day' or 'I really should take a nap..but this man is better than sleep' but none of that matters, because my chocolate is gone and so is my attention span. To put it simple, spending any kind of  time with Syd Barrett is necessary and beautiful...
And with that...I will say, (with absolute vulnerability), at this point in my life...i would give anything to have a soul like Syd to talk to. They just don't make men like that anymore...someone with deep thoughts, the charisma, the talent, the amazing vocabulary...and those eyes, oh my god those beautiful, soulful eyes. And what if... he held me really tight and sang to me as we slow danced? How about if we take a walk... and i pick him flowers and listen to him play and sing and he could read me alice in wonderland under a tree... while we are eating ice cream and after this, we take a nap on the grass together? How about the two of us simply enjoying an herbal session?

Perhaps in another life,

Lynn

TRUTH

⚜Zen is all-inclusive. It never denies, it never says no to anything; it accepts everything and transforms it into a higher reality...I don't let go of my thoughts, I meet them with understanding, then they let go of me...Byron Katie⚜

perfect...

:)

We learn from every step we take. Whatever you did today was the way it was meant to be. Be proud of you

The Law of Attraction

No matter what it is, if you really want it, and if you get out of the way of it, it will happen. It must be. It is Law. It can be no other way. It's the way this Universe is established. If you want it and you relax, it will happen. ~Abraham Hicks

☼ The Power of Meditation ☼

"Sitting is the gateway of truth to total liberation." ~Dogen

The first thing you need to do is relax. Once you've reached a deep state of mental tranquility, you enable yourself to connect with the Universal Mind or Spirit.

☯

 Tao Te Ching.  Knowledge and humility  (chap. 33, tr. Feng and English)

Knowing others is wisdom;

Knowing the self is enlightenment.

Mastering others requires force;

Mastering the self requires strength;

He who knows he has enough is rich.

Perseverance is a sign of will power.

He who stays where he is endures.

To die but not to perish is to be eternally present.

YES YES YES ECO HOME!!

"Visualize this thing that you want, see it, feel it, believe in it. Make your mental blueprint and begin." Robert Collier

▲ The Law Of Attraction ▲

"Mentally imagine and prepare for your perfect future." Che Garman

be who you are and don't appologize

There is a road, no simple highway, between the dawn and the dark of night...and if you go, no one may follow. That path is for your steps alone. ~Jerry Garcia

❖ My Anthem ❖

A happy life is just a string of happy moments. But most people don't allow the happy moment, because they're so busy trying to get a happy life. ~Abraham Hicks

happy girls are the prettiest girls

If you wanna scrap with me, be prepared to feel like you're getting hit by feathers. Sexy feathers.

Note to self...

Start spending time with nice people who are smart, driven and likeminded. Relationships should help you, not hurt you. Surround yourself with people who reflect the person you want to be

"I believe.... in gratitude. I believe gratitude is one of the foundations to living a more positive life. I believe writing down at least 5 things you are grateful for, each day, will help you attract more things to be grateful for. I believe gratitude will help you see the positive (the silver lining) in any situation - yes, even the ones we first thought were not so good. Couple gratitude with love and you have a powerful force - you have the foundation to the spiritual laws and your life will be blessed beyond your wildest dreams."~~~Soul Inspiring

Today's affirmation: "I am grateful every single day for the blessings and the wonderful people who are bestowed upon me"

"The greatest goodness is peace of mind"~~~The Buddha

The Tao Te Ching and Dr. Wayne Dyer

Every act of love sheds light on the world. Love most where it is most needed, beginning within

Starting with positive affirmations you can plant the seed. Sometimes hope is all you have. If you have it, you have everything...

I have an everyday religion that works for me. Love yourself first, and everything else falls into line. -Lucille Ball

It is the perfect beginning ♥ I love my life ♥ I am here to flow in the direction of MY desires, not someone elses ♥ I have an abundance of wealth flowing from multiple sources ♥ Positivity changes everything ♥ I am never to old to set another goal or dream a new dream ♥ I love my life. What I seek is seeking me ♥ I will observe situations without emotions. No need to get frustrated, it's not worth the stress ♥ I am loved ♥ I am grateful for all the people who love me ♥ I will look for joy in each day and I will find it ♥ I have an amazing and beautiful life ♥ I am grateful for all that is well in my world ♥ I live with an abundance of all that is good ♥ Only good lies before me ♥ I will laugh more, and lighten up ♥ I believe in myself ♥ Thoughts that feel good is where my power lies ♥ Gratitude is absolutly the way to bring more into my life ♥ What I think about, I bring about ♥ It is always worthwhile to make others aware of their worth ♥ Happier thoughts lead to happier bio-chemistry ♥ I declair richness and fullness in my life ♥ I will spend my life lifting people up, not putting them down ♥ Negative people will try to drag me down, I will love them but rise above them ♥ What I believe becomes true for me ♥ Life is divine chaos and I will embrace it ♥ The way I think creates reality for myself ♥ Be thankful for what you have and you will end up having more ♥ Happy thoughts = Happy molecules ♥ My gratitude = My happiness ♥ I can turn my negative thoughts around as soon as I have them ♥ I am in total acceptance of where I am right now. Only good lies before me ♥ I am here for a mighty purpose ♥ I have faith in the universe and in my future ♥ My opinions matter ♥ I will not take things too hard ♥ Happiness is my choice ♥ This is my life, this is my time ♥ I am happy, healthy and wealthy in every way ♥ I will be who I am deep in my soul and I will chip away my hard outter shell ♥ I will forgive myself for my faults and move on ♥ I deserve great things reguardless of my past mistakes ♥

WORDS CHANGE EVERYTHING

I AM...

kind ☮ inspiring ☮ pretty ☮ generous ☮ happy ☮ free ☮ enthusiastic ☮ peaceful ☮ forgiving ☮ worldly ☮ understanding ☮ healthy

Positive affirmations, such as these, helped me sort out some personal struggles. The bottom line is...when you feel good, good things happen. Then life becomes way more fun than you ever expected.

Once upon a time, I was a little broken bird

Well, I'm not sure how I ended up here, because I'm not a blogger. Something lead me here and I'm just gonna go with it. It could be some sort of "Divine Push" in this direction from my dearest and sweetest friend, Sam, who passed away last summer. She always said I should blog, but I just wasn't into it. I was afraid to be vulnerable...(stupid ego.) But that was then, and I have a different outlook on everything now.
There are a lot of really amazing things happening to me.  I am in love with life and I am growing in so many different ways. Finally. And don't ever believe the person who says "People don't change" because they absolutely do. They just have to be tired of being mad and anxious all the time. Tired of playing that bogus victim role...tired of bogging down friends and family with their drama and treating them like they are a complaint counter.  As a child, for me, growing up was challenging because it was too strict. I wasn't really growing into an individual...so I ultimately blossomed into a smart mouthed, angry, extremely confrontational and immature, sometimes introverted, rebellious asshole. As a young girl I was just subjected to various people who acted that way. It doesn't matter now though. I'm extremely thankful. The point I'm trying to make is not that I had a bad childhood, so don't get confused. It was great and we were all very loved, took vacations, went fishing, rode bikes, had a swing set that tipped when we went too high. Normal kid stuff minus hanging out with friends. I still to this day wonder why it was such a big deal if I ever wanted to do that. You know, have friends. Maybe it scared my young parents to have any of their 5 children scattered all over town, who knows. I always knew our well being was of utmost importance though. Even if it meant no freedom.
Well, I read somewhere many years ago that "Happiness comes from within". Either people were saying it, or I was repeatedly reading it from random sources. It made me frustrated because, c'mon! Didn't I need things and people to be and behave in ways that best suits me in order for me to be happy?? Wasn't everyone supposed to just dance around me and say and do the things I wanted to hear and see to make me happy?? Then my favorite was "You can't make someone else happy unless you're happy" or "Take responsibility for your own happiness".. I just wasn't getting at all. How can I be happy on the inside if people were consistently pissing me off on the outside? Or maybe I just felt the need to control everything and everybody to suit how happy my day would be. Holy crap! Was I taught that? Hell I don't know. I was tired of it though...decided to get to the bottom of this "Being happy inside" business. The Law Of Attraction sort of fell in my lap one day. I've been studying it... and it's changing my life. I gotta tell ya, it feels pretty good to say that I am truly happy. Inside. I realized that my inner convictions were too strong to stay dormant...and so here I go. It didn't happen over night and wasn't easy, and still challenges me every day...but the more focused I get on having a better life, the easier it gets to shift my thinking and my mind and my well being is of utmost importance to me and I choose to be free. I will tell you with certainty, if you find yourself regularly annoyed by people and things, you are a controlling person so you may as well just admit it now. If you're annoyed by a person just being themselves, you won't be able to co-exist comfortably. So, if you get the feeling you wanna knock someone's block off because they make you uncomfortable...I think you get the picture. Oh, and don't chase pain by taking things personally. It's a waste of time. That's that. Which reminds me of a quote by Rumi- "Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open?" Most do because they don't know any better. For me, it was the decision, OK, Lynn, do you want to be happy? Then you have to abandon your aggressive and harsh attitude. 
 I've had a beautiful life so far. It has been interesting, challenging, angry, joyful, confusing, scary, blissful and fun and believe me when I say, there's no way I would take back anything. It has been perfect, all of it...the good, the bad and especially the ugly. And you're going to be driving your car one day when it hits you..."Wow, I don't have to be so hard... to prove that I'm tough".  And THAT will be clarity...it feels pretty good.
I suppose this blog will morph itself, organically, into whatever it will be. I have no plans here other than using it for a creative outlet to share part of my journey. The essence, for now, is transformation. My current state is a cocooned caterpillar...Like, "The Slumber Of The Chrysalis", if you will. Because, although I feel centered and collected, I know I'm still in the healing/transformation process. The essence here is love and inspiration. Whatever you get from it will be useful I predict. Something led you here...something called you to this page, so I hope it is an inspiration to you on your path. To pay homage to my dear friend Sam...Trust in your journey. Be funny, be fun, take a chance, follow your passion and don't give up on your dreams. Look at the sky from time to time, notice the clouds~moon~stars~sun~trees~bees and all things nature. Go outside, get out of the office, run, smile , laugh, tell jokes, love your family, love your friends, love your enemies. Be kind to the assholes of the world...they need it the most. Be patient, don't complain, keep a journal, be passionate, take care of yourself, love yourself. TRUST YOURSELF. Love and trust yourself no matter what.

"If there ever comes a day where we can't be together, put me in your heart and I'll stay there forever."

Thanks for reading,
Lynn


                       "The Mind Is Everything. What You Think, You Become." ~Buddha